I'm back with a post after many many months.
I can't really remember why I suddenly stopped... except the fact I had A LOT of university work to be getting on with. I put the energy I had for my posts into assignments and revision.
After my first year at uni had come to an end I didn't come back to my weekly blogging schedule.
As Rihanna would say... WORK, WORK WORK, WORK, WORK!
5 days a week, throughout the whole of my
"summer holidays", break from assignments. I say " summer holidays" because it really didn't feel like I even had one. All I did was eat, work, sleep and guess what... repeat!
I'm not complaining though as my bank account became very happy at the end of each month.
I'm all back and settled at university again for my second year, already very different from last year.
Anyway, onto the point I'm trying to make this post about... struggling, but knowing you have to keep going.
The first few weeks of uni was a doddle, as always, but now assignments are due every couple weeks. I know it doesn't seem like a lot but the amount of time spent on each can be ridiculous.
It's hard, really hard. I'm struggling quit a lot, even if I don't show it.
It's difficult trying to explain what I mean. It's sort of like not wanting to carry on because it's so much effort over a long period of time, having no energy to do all that is needed of yourself. Feeling a bit pathetic and useless because you don't know what is being said in lectures half the time. To be totally honest I just want to be at home with my family and my cat. However sad that may sound I really mean it.
This time last year I recall feeling very similar. I even remember wanting quit uni altogether because I hated the lifestyle I was living. I've recently thought about it and I think the dark early mornings and short lit days do not help.
I've lived away from home for about a year and a half all together now and I've learnt to deal with feeling miserable whenever I become so. Yes, you're allowed to be sad and sometimes its good to have a cry to let all those bottled up emotions out.
But who really wants to be sad? Not me, so I just try my best and ignore myself in a way. Tell myself to stop being such a baby and get on with what needs to be done. ( most of the time).
I've found ways which personally help me to forget when I'm struggling:
- Base yourself around people: Being on my own in my bedroom made me feel lonely. So hang out with your house mates or uni course friends, it will take your mind of it for sure.
- Pamper yourself: This is aimed more towards girls. Put on a face mask, do your nails, a warm relaxing bath/shower or ALL THREE! Doing this put me in a better state of mind. In a way it made me feel as if I had recharged my batteries, ready to go again.
- Sleep: Another obvious way to recharge your batteries. When I felt glum or had no energy to do assignments I made sure I had an early night so I was ready and awake in the morning. Doing assignments while half asleep was not good as they probably didn't turn out with the best grade.
- Start assignments early: From last year, I have learnt to follow this rule. Rushing assignments the night before hand in day was not clever. Give yourself time to think things over instead of writing any old Bull sh*t down.
- You only have 3 years to enjoy this time, so enjoy it: Think to yourself that you won't be at uni forever, so make the most of it. Like one of my old school teachers used to say ( wow, that was 3 years ago and that went super fast) "work hard but party harder".
Writing this post is also helping me as well as others. Realizing uni isn't all doom and gloom, just stay positive!
I'd like to know if any other students are struggling with uni at the moment and how you cope!
Love
ChristyJane x
